FELL; WHAT NEXT??

We all have embarrassing moments that we always hide in the closet so that no one can see. I remember one time I was late for class and I was running down the staircase. I don’t remember what exactly happened but I guess I missed a step and boom! It was a mixture of a skid, a thud , a scream and everything else that comes with all that. The position that I landed on was even worse. It was so funny that I ended up looking like I was tying my shoes and not falling.

I remember looking up just to confirm that no one had actually seen me. I wanted to get up so fast and actually pretend I was tying my shoes. I was so embarrassed.

Typically, that’s how most human beings are. When we fall, we never want to be seen in our falls.We don’t want to display our broken pieces in the open. We want to show that perfect lifestyle, but for what!! I feel like it’s time we realize that it’s okay to fall and hiding from the outcome of the fall never solves anything. You may receive criticism when you fall, whether positive or negative. Others are just going to stare and do nothing. Essentially, the outcome of what people say may build you or break you. All in all you will learn a lesson.Being overly-protective is sometimes overly-dangerous. You may be locking out potential advice. You may get negative critics but from that you learn too.

Only God is perfect. We are humans, flesh and blood so we, in one way or another will fall. It’s okay to be seen in the fall. Embrace the moment, dust yourself and move forward.

Georgina

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YOUR DEPRESSION DOESN’T DEFINE YOU

Hello loves,

Just so you know, your depression doesn’t define you.

It might feel like it does. Sometimes it might even feel like it consumes you completely, and I understand that. Because sometimes back, my depression did the same thing to me. It swallowed me whole and drowned me in self-doubt. Then, it strangled me with poisonous thoughts and convinced me I’m unworthy of love, and sometimes even life. But I’m not unworthy, and neither are you.

Depression is just pure evil that convinces you everything is wrong, including yourself. It gets inside your body, and your mind, and your soul, and it cuts you down to your very core. Depression is lonely because it’s only understandable to the people who have fought through it themselves. It’s an unexplainable nightmare you keep waking up from, but you never actually get out of.

It’s inescapable and when the people around you urge you to bring yourself out of it, you only fall in deeper.

It steals your drive of passion and takes away your will to love. It leaves you stranded all alone, feeling like a mess whose only contribution to the world is their sadness. It swallows you, and it consumes you, and then it makes you believe all you are is your depression. But you’re not. You are more, and you always have been.

You are a human being. A human who has made someone smile, and someone laugh, and someone feel. You’ve impacted people with your own smile, and your own laugh, and your own feelings. You have beliefs and passions and a journey to a destination you are destined to reach. You have your own path in life that is only meant for you and your mind to conquer. 

You’re a human who has made a difference in the world, whether you realize it or not.

You’re a friend who is needed, and a family member who is loved deeply. You’re a person who can understand something as devastating as depression and help other people who struggle with it by simply letting them know they are not alone.

You are powerful, and compassionate. You are caring, beautiful, and one of a kind. There is only one person on this planet who has everything you’ve got, and that’s you. And that makes you important, and needed, and rare.

You are an incredibly strong human being, and never try to say that you aren’t. I know you are, because you’ve felt the type of lowness that has left people utterly broken, and yet you’re still here.

You’re here, and you’re still fighting. You are not your depression. You are a warrior who fights a daily battle within yourself and survives it every single day.

You are a survivor. A human who has felt pure emptiness and lived through it. And most of all, you are someone who deserves love and the life you live, because what defines you could never be minimized to a single word, unless that word is more.

Wherever you are in the world, you’re loved. You’re God’s masterpiece 💕💕

OCEAN REVERIE

Vast and overwhelming

You take my breath away

I wonder at your majesty

In your realm I yearn to stay

A heartbeat ceaseless rhythm

You dance in constant sway

Waves crush upon unending shore

Then retreat yonder ,far away

Did you know I love your smell and sound?

As waves splash upon my naked feet

See me sink into your white fine sands

Battling tides-that’s no mean feat!

There is no greater feeling

Than floating in your midst

Riding boisterous waves of fury

With sense of pure ,great bliss

Your mirror life’s great mysteries

Your wonders never cease

One moment calm and tempered

Then,fierce-raging like a beast

Your waters are galaxy,

Such creatures live within

Flora flourish in your realistic

Fauna thrive midst watery din

Perhaps I was born to be a sailor

To ride your waves each day!

Oh! Such it seems was not be be

It’s a lifetime ,held at bay

Yet,would that I could settle

Somewhere close,upon your shore.

And there I yearn to live my life,

Until it be no more

And so final farewell,

My simple reverie

Is of ashes shorn into your well…

That is enough for me

And you simply carry on

Ceaseless rhythm,constant sway,

Lord, thank you for such majesty,

May we protect land and ocean,I pray.

Georgina

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VULNERABILITY

On my way to school my friend couldn’t stop ranting about how she hates being vulnerable and prefers to be uptight at all times. She spoke with so much anger and less enthusiasm and that left me seriously in thoughts.

Over the years life has taught me to always be objective in everything I do and give room for more questions in order to gain more grounds. I tried asking her why she was so angry in the first place considering the fact it was just nine in the morning. She sadly responded “I opened up to her and now I hate myself for it”. There are people we meet and open up to and they leave a sour taste in our mouth and there are those we meet and we could be with them for hours without saying a word but when we leave, it seems as though we’ve said a whole lot. There are also those we meet and open up to and our lives gets transformed positively and immediately.

The question running through my head right now is, “Is vulnerability risky?” “Is vulnerability a sign of weakness?”.

Personally I believe vulnerability is risky. It can be really scary to lower your defenses and open up your life to others. When you reveal your failures, feelings, frustrations, and fears, you risk rejection. But the benefits are worth the risk. Vulnerability is emotionally liberating. Despite the fact that some people’s lack of fidelity has made it difficult for one to open up and talk about their issues or life threatening problems, there are still good ones out there. It’s a matter of learning the hard truth from those that betrayed you, forgive yourself and them then move on. But always keep an open heart and mind at all times and never use a particular to judge a whole.

The truth is opening up to the right person relieves stress, defuse your fears, and is the first step to freedom. It’s no news that God gives grace to the humble, but many misunderstand humility. Humility is not putting yourself down or denying your strength either; rather it is being honest about your weaknesses.

The more honest you are, the more of God’s grace you get. You will also receive grace from others. Vulnerability is an endearing quality ; we are naturally drawn to humble people but pretentiousness repels. Authenticity attracts and vulnerability is the pathway to intimacy.

Let’s be real and allow people to be real around us and not take their vulnerability for granted or consider it a sign of weakness

Georgina

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IN YOUR WEAKNESS HIS STRENGTH WILL PROOVE TRUE

I would love to say that my life’s journey is marked by great personal strength but quite the opposite is true. It has been marked by personal weaknesses where God showed up and made His strength manifest time and time again.

It is not out of self loathing or insecurity but I am very aware that my life has been a living testimony of one verse,

“Instead, God chose things the world considers foolish in order to shame those who think they are wise. And he chose things that are powerless to shame those who are powerful.” 1 Corinthians 1:27

My life in Christ literally was birthed in His sovereignty. He chased after me and would not let me go until I surrendered to His unconditional love and passionate pursuit. Then, time and time again in my early years of walking with Him, He miraculously kept me safe from my own wayward heart as I was taught by His Spirit how to walk in honor and integrity (even while my character was far from displaying those qualities). Like a child learning to walk or a teenager learning to love, He was patient and forgiving…and so happy to manifest His strength in the midst of my weaknesses.

Now, five years later, I stand in awe at how His strength has proven true in the midst of my human weaknesses. My character has developed and changed due to His amazing grace but somehow I’m always vividly aware that all that I’ve been given and all the opportunities that have come my way have nothing to do with my strengths but everything to do with God making known His strength in the midst of my weaknesses.

In the company of the amazing Father ,Mother,brothers and sisters that I have been given the honor to walk in relationship with, I often feel like the “odd girl out”. I am loved, received and shown such honor and yet I know that my only qualification for the platform or position that I’ve been given is “my weakness.” I have learned to surrender to His love, to embrace my weakness by understanding that it is only in absolute dependency that His strength and sovereignty will been proven true once again. Surrender is my life song and the awe of His kindness has become my focus.

Do not despise who He made you to be. He creates every vessel differently. As much as I’d love to be an intricate vessel that stands out in a crowd, I’d rather embrace that He made me a simple vessel that causes Him to stand out in a crowd.

Every person; from the genius to the one who struggles to read, from one who turns heads due to their physical beauty to the one who has always been in invisible…all were created with great purpose. Each one has weaknesses that offer them the opportunity to be ushered into the place of surrender and dependency. It is in that place that our God shines the brightest and it is there that the glory of the Lord is made manifest.

“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

May His power rest upon you in the place that your human weakness has tried to disqualify you. In every weakness, every hardship, every insult and accusation…may His power and strength become Christ in you…the hope of glory so that many may come to know Him and experience His grace.

“To them God chose to make known how great among the Gentiles are the riches of the glory of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.” Colossians 1:27

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FIND YOURSELF

Throughout our entire life, we have continued to feed on information thrown at us.  Education, socialization and media have continuously impacted our self-perception and thought process.

With the development of technology, ideas have been streaming from one corner to the other, most of which have led to the progression of the human life. Technology has made possible the spread of cultures and familiarized us with people who live 3000 miles away from us.

Technology is substantial but on the flip side, we have lost independence when it comes to making decisions and thinking for ourselves. After taking in so much for so long we have become zombies in that we have no sense of our individuality.

An instance is the fashion industry. Most of us are quick to buy what is trending, which is totally okay. But do we realise that all these advertisements that popularise a certain trend are just a tactic to increase sales in the shop? We are constantly promoting other peoples businesses, people who have studied the buying behaviour of women, and refuse to build our own financial accounts.

Day after day we want to acquire this and that clothes and end up piling our closets with junk that will expire in three months time.

Before you rush to buy something that was made popular by a celebrity think to yourself if it expresses who you are.

Social Media

Let’s talk Instagram!

The world has made the Kardashians such gods to idolise about. When people are suffering in the middle east and some part of Africa, it is more sensible to talk about Kim’s new hairdo. “Blonde is out, black hair is the new cool” and other shallow headlines we are made to consume.

So Rihanna got a new hairdo, let’s all run out to the salon and do the same.  We are using other peoples individuality to dictate our own.

For the longest time, I thought I would only look good with straight hair because it was the standard set in the beauty industry and the reality show stars.

I almost relaxed my hair to match this standard and thought that my kinky hair wasn’t beautiful.

The number of likes I got in a photo determined my mood. If that is not enough my self-worth. If I got around 50 likes, it meant that I wasn’t likeable or not good enough compared to my friends who got 200+ likes. if my picture got no likes in 2 minutes, I would delete it. See how one person’s self-esteem would go down because of an app.

Sadly, this is the situation of millions of girls out there who spend too much time on the internet and less trying to find themselves, developing their talents and making memories.  I wouldn’t blame them, this is what the world has become.

Some of us would go to a vacation just to take pictures and spend the remaining time to edit it, losing out on the entire experience.

Today, I would like to challenge everyone to try and find who they are without the internet. What do you like to do? what do you dislike?what cant you tolerate? what gives you excitement? most of us can’t answer this questions.

Give yourself a chance, allow yourself to be alive, for, in order for us to truly live, we have to be aware of ourselves and of the present moment.

Find out who you are before the world dictated who you should be!

FOR ME

When my day lacks your presence
It is so very hard to do
What is so pleasing to you

I find myself beginning to lean
Into my own understanding
While straying from the wisdom
Of your word

I sometimes stumble, falling so short
In everything that my hands set out to do
If it is not being done to glorify your name

And I find the pain of disappointment
Is almost too much, too hard to bear

While With each failure I find
It is impossible to have success in my life
Unless You Lord, are the foundation of it all.